I Live, I Love, I Lust.

embracingingray @ 2009-12-03T12:26:00

2009-12-03T04:26:09Z

ohhkayy. i'm going JB this saturday. gonna hunt for some cheap thrills. & daddy gave me some allowance to spend over there. sweet uh.

let's see. i wanna go escape soon. i wanna buy more secret recipe. i wanna start working soon. i wanna eat some pizza. i wanna buy some new stuff. i wanna finish my fyp poster. i wanna finish my presentation which is on the 12th. i wanna finish school work soon so i can focus on other issues.
going back to training, let's have some fun this coming weekend! ;)

embracingingray @ 2009-11-20T01:24:00

2009-11-19T17:24:08Z

mmm.
yummy max.
chocolate milk + plain corn cereal + diced strawberries!

attempt for the $3.80 haircut at jurong east with team mates has failed.
gonna go over again, maybe over the weekend. ;)

rpdb, all the best for SRR! :)

it doesn't matter.

2009-11-17T14:06:24Z

it doesn't matter the kind of stares they give.
it doesn't matter what type of comments they may say.
it doesn't matter what is going on in their puny heads too.

because this is all part of life. humans have the habit of giving stares to visuals that they view as "abnormal" or "weird". all the more to things that they only thought of doing in their wildest dreams. and that's what they perceive, only.

i am in the least affected. in fact, i've accepted it and love it even more each time.
for it is a norm. just get used to it.

& it really doesn't matter!
LOL.

embracingingray @ 2009-11-16T22:29:00

2009-11-16T14:29:27Z

2 black pepper chicken wings
1 box of strawberries
1 box of corn cereals

now i'm thinking of pasta mania's apple crumble pie.
anyone, just buy for me lehh.. :P
& strawberries remind me of the strawberry cream puff i last saw at a bakery in T1. that puff has 5 freaking strawberries stuck in it! :D :D :D

final year project report. food. report. food. report. food. report. submission.

i've got quite a number of lust on my mind now. and i need to start working in december to get the figure rolling in my account so i can save and feed some of my desires if i really wanted to.

this is week 7. time flies blardy fast.

edited/
you know those advertisements u always see on cereal boxes with strawberries in it? i just added strawberries to my cereal. but full cream milk will go better with it cos it tastes sweeter. or maybe i should add strawberries to coco crunch instead? mmm..

embracingingray @ 2009-10-30T10:36:00

2009-10-30T02:37:26Z

week 4.

i kept thinking that it was ytd's lesson that has got lab. so i checked with benjamin pow and confirmed that there was no lab. & today when i went to class, it was empty. then i realised that the lab is today. but i have no jeans, no lab coat. but somewhat, i thought i'd be able to do abit of my logbook in class during breakout so i brought it along. smart move aye. else, now i'll be rotting in school.

after school got fyp meeting aye. im wondering what time i should stay till.

kay. so now i've got a whole lot of hours to do my logbook and the water parameters log sheet before i sent it out to the rest of the team. siannn.

the sun is scorching. no matter how slowly i walk, i'd still perspire. now i hope some kind soul can help me get a eraser and pass to me in the lib cos the boxes i drew on my logbook in replacement of the pictures is sooo... irritating. and i left my eraser and pencil at home..

i'm on a budget plan for today. hehe. cos i brought 3 sandwiches from homeee. ;)

ciaos!

embracingingray @ 2009-10-26T11:43:00

2009-10-26T03:54:27Z

last thursday i was still ranting on how my track shoes got lost. but mum eventually paid for my new pair that i bought ytd at queensway. heng, i found a good deal. :) so now, im going to make sure my shoes don't get lost again else i'll stab myself to death. suprisingly, last night, i dreamt of a handful of ppl whom i know, wearing the shoe i bought.

now, im going to spend a few good hours on my logbook first. and hopefully report tml.
i see deadlines ahead of me.
now, let's grab hold of time and grasp it tight.

i have 2 UTs coming up ayee. sian.

embracingingray @ 2009-10-22T23:34:00

2009-10-22T15:52:53Z

it's a bad day.

embracingingray @ 2009-10-13T00:16:00

2009-10-12T16:32:00Z

school's been great so far. well, of course- for i had to attend school for only 2 days mah. today was shiokness. i was able to skip visiting the farm for daily maintenance of our experiment despite no one in the team was able to make it. i just wanted to sleep more, wake up late and feel lazy at home. & i did. :D but still, i'll be visiting the farm tml morning. decided to catch the first shuttle bus there so guru and i can finish things fast, and leave that place with those kind of kampong dogs that smelled my ass on one occasion when i was pouring waste water taken from the tanks, into the drain outside the site. like scare the mfh out of me only. and best, that dog looks like it was on "high". :X

i-am-scared-of-big-jumpy-active-dogs-that-don't-belong-to-me.
& i have never owned a dog. but i'd love to keep a small one and rmb to trim its nails often so it won't scratch me, bathe it so it won't smell, and make it look so presentable.

(i'll look forward to this sat, cos someone's meeting me after his friday book out. :D )

i feel like stoning now.

holidays are ending!

2009-10-02T18:33:20Z

OKAYS! i just saw my time table and it got me pretty egg-cited about it already.

day 3- structural biology (tentatively on thursdays unless some public holiday pops up.)
day 4- medical microbiology (tenatively on fridays unless some public holiday pops up.)

ayes. like super awesome to the max please. 2-days-week are total shiokness. i think i should put morning shifts on tuesdays uh? or maybe occasionally full shifts- better this way. this is gonna be the last semester before graduation. so i'd better work harder on those modules. come to think of it, i need to resume my log book and start my report for my G302 soon.

deadline: 24th november 2009.
kns. so soon.

bro is finally feeling much better already. bet i made him feel like he ought to dote on me more for taking care of him while he's down with G.E. he never once took care of me when i was unwell. now im starting to get calculative with him uh. hahaha.

african monkey is going to embark on his National Service in a few days time. & so, i shall look forward to him booking out. :)

good nights, <3

embracingingray @ 2009-09-25T01:01:00

2009-09-24T17:03:30Z

exasperate.
exasperated.
exasperation.

now, congrats to u.

Shandy Makes The World Go Rounddd!

2009-09-18T16:38:20Z

i'm craving for lots of jolly shandy now adays. maybe i should stock up some at home, just in case. with a little bit of beer taste, it never seems sufficient. anw, daddy gave me abt half a can of carlsberg just now nia. mmm. S_X man. hahaha! just some minal beer crave. anw, the handful of us just satisfied our fried chicken craves- KFC! but it feels eeekyy after the meal cos it's oily and such a sin.

2 more weeks till school resumes. results aren't out yet.
new working space tml. awesomely looking forward towards it. hope the amt of cctvs won't increase. 11.5 hours at work will be over real soon.
end of the month is coming, which spells the arrival of my pay again. yessah! ^^

& that kengwi horh, happily enjoying himself at portugal only. hopefully, he brings back some shirts for us or some nice local snacks. :D

ciaos!

embracingingray @ 2009-09-16T21:28:00

2009-09-16T14:19:22Z

Somewhere i can chill for hours without uttering a single word..

it feels especially shiok when you have strong wind blowing in your face, with a view of sea(or fresh water) right infront of you. like a getaway from everything. (:))

as usual, i went to the farm today. almost cldn't make it on time for the kranji express. heng. :\ knocked out the fishes to weigh, did some recordings etc. it'll be like this for every wednesday morning. speaking of it, the sun was super scorching since morning and it CAT1 in the evening. how nice.

after full shift this sat, i'm going to PLAY. that was like omg, about a year since i last went. and miraculously, i still rmbed my way there. well, at least 80% clear. hiak hiak hiak. i wonder how diff has it been after renovation, which was quite long ago.

kay. im going to enjoy abu now, and crave for mogu mogu tml! WHEEES!
:) :) :)

there are just so many things that im looking forward to this holiday. even the most minal one. :)

i shall get my report for today done. :(

ciaos!

embracingingray @ 2009-09-12T02:31:00

2009-09-11T18:54:45Z

hardcore yawning like a hippotamus.

i feel like not enough effort has been put in by my fyp team mates for the proj. yes, the farm is far and transportation is a problem. at least make an effort or more effort. guess nice uncle eric pitied that i went to the farm alone on friday morning that he offered me a ride to kranji station when i was abt to leave to catch the shuttle bus back.

these few days have been draining me badly at night. ive got to rush out reports of what happened at the farm on that particular day itself cos yours truly always is the one bringing her camera along to take pictures for recording purposes. so i can't escape the fate of sending email updates. for 2 nights straight, i fell asleep while doing the report- bad enough. i just sent the update for today. :(

weekends are the best nowadays. i think i still have 3 more weeks of holidays nia. 3 more weeks only. :/ oh. speaking of holidays, i actually got the shifts i requested for september after changing schedule 3 times. bet the pathetic management must be in need of manpower. go hire some more noobs loh. someday, you'll realise that the old royal gingers are always better. -smirk face- LOL. aye but seriously, i've been working there ever since the start of my year1. and they can don't allocate me shifts when i only submitted weekends ones. from18sept onwards, the area that i've always been allocated will be closed down, shifted to just beside the main store. this means more control and i can't skive happily with my snacks. :( i wonder if extra cctv will be added or not. & they also specify dresscode fr work from 18sept onwards - white top, black jeans, white canvas. but.. white plain tee or singlet also can? white shirt? will it do fine with white jacket too? i wanna know if can wear leggings or not. jeans are hot to the max, esp in such weather. there's alot of blind spots in the dresscode uhh. ^^

should i sign up for nike race again this year? yes, its cheaper but the shirt doesnt seem that attactive.

kkays. good nights!

embracingingray @ 2009-09-02T23:05:00

2009-09-02T15:33:56Z

almost from scratch.

sometimes, things in life just couldn't stay the same all the while. we call for changes, improvements, amendments, suggestions, or even advices to work in things. that's how situations revolve around us. or should i say, we revolve around situations. & because things in life just couldn't stay the same, there are always occasions whereby we have to start from scratch and work on it, e.g. my fyp experiment- too many fishes die in my treated experiment due to factors being overlooked. thus, as we start from zero, giving others a chance is as good as giving ourselves a chance to try. it's like "you'll never know..".

this will be fun. ;)

anw, i went to get a couple of things after training. had a sudden craving for ham and cheese sandwich siol. but i dont think i should even bother making for tml cos i got to set up the experiment at kranji farm tml. i should prepare for friday morning.

wheeess! prison run'09 this sunday. i hope my right knee don't chui on me.

good nights. :)

embracingingray @ 2009-08-28T23:26:00

2009-08-28T16:51:04Z

i want a rainbow! :)

holidays spells the calling for a routine that's pretty standard and does not require much updating cos its always abt similar stuff i guess. 5 weeks of holidays and more to come when im going to have lessons 2 days a week next semester. should have chosen psychology as my elective instead of medical microbiology. oh well.

i was still studying proteomics last sunday for monday's test, but only realising that the test on monday was genomics. :( but genomics wasnt that bad luh.

i'm feeling HIGHLY irritable by minor things right now. yes, it happens every month, hinting me abt its arrival. urgh. roars*. tsk. not just that, im wondering if my fyp experiment will be safe with my other proj mates. you know, men are quite clumsy & dumb at times. im afraid that they did screw it. somehow, i cant trust them fully yet. it still feels better for me to be present, which apparently, i wasn't able to always be there.

p.s. breathe, fishy, breathe. get a better control over irritation. it'll pass. you've experienced it before and have controlled it well. just do it again.

what you have learnt:
pre menstrual symptom 1: highly irritable
pre menstrual symptom 2: probing too much questions, doubting too much.

sian.

embracingingray @ 2009-08-12T23:04:00

2009-08-12T15:21:39Z

urgh. food poisoning. sian.
i guess it all started when i bought sausage bun from the bakery at sembawang train station last night. i intended to finish it but i forgot so i took it this morning. that's how it started i guess. the sun was amazingly scorched and i started having throbbing headache after i got to the kranji, our experimental site. i tot it wld go away soon so i tried to focus and carry on with the proj discussion with SIF's boss and their consultant, of course, my advisor and 2 of my team mates were there. it kind of worked a little cos i managed to note down alot of info before i eventually excuse myself from the conference room, where i then puked twice at the farms. like damn sad kind. advisor has got to go back to school by 12 for a meeting but she eventually agreed to send me home.

the headaches got worst and lasted for a number of hours. all i cld do was to sit next to the toilet bowl, force myself to puke and grab my head as if it wld ease the pain. the plastic bag that eric passed me at the farm kind of helped alittle but it had a holes in it apparently. so my gastric juices got leaked to the floor but i cleared them already. and for the first time, gastric juices smell like the fish farm which was like eeeewwwww. :(

headaches, diarrhea, thrown ups.

i was alone and tossing on my bed until my mum got back in the evening.
i feel so bad for leaving 2 of my teammates there to clean all the tanks and filtration media; leaving ben and guru to test the water sample in school. :(

MY TILAPIAS!! :'(

hope i'd be fine by tml. i've got lots of things to do. :/

adeline sent me this. don't we look sweet tgt? :D

embracingingray @ 2009-08-10T14:25:00

2009-08-10T06:52:02Z

1 more lesson till the end of week 14 and then comes week 15. time ticks like nobody's business and i'm completing another phase of my education life. like some time ago before semester 1, i was still ranting about taking 4 modules this semester and 2 modules for the next.
RP has been a retarded polytechnic with all the influenza crap plus the recent 2 deaths of rp students on the railway tracks. see, shit things always happens to RP. tsk. & often, i find weird classmates in my class too. :/ like asking me abt my daily grades, UT grades and GPA, giving me the look seemingly to ask me for a solution for improving her grades. and of course, nice me always try to answer nicely. ^^ but the incident happened at the wrong venue- toilet. fortunately i managed to excuse myself from it.

FYP G301 grades were just freshly released. everyone was saying that majority will be getting Cs, with a low amount of students getting Bs and the least getting As. & for sure, deep inside each of us, we roughly guessed what grade we should deserve based on the amount of work and effort that we've put into it. well, good for me cos yours truly got A for her FYP. :)
but there's still the second half of the project to go. lots of troubleshooting to go.

god. benjamin just called me. my fishes in the treated tank are dying. it has definitely got to do with the high ammonia. tsk. issues like this arise esp when we're doing aquaculture for the first time. urgh. and ben is angryyy. :/

kkays. till then.

embracingingray @ 2009-07-23T15:11:00

2009-07-23T07:26:37Z

there's definitely a long tough way ahead. but we'll get through it, we'll get better at it as we move along. it won't be easy but it'd be as nice as watching a sunrise- heaving a sigh of relief and admiring the scene. i do wonder why are things always changing, changing for the better of a entire aspect. it keeps me working towards it but there are things that keep me pondering in mind.

school has been esp easy? yeah, very. i expect A for today's lesson though i arrive late for lesson but i wasn't marked down for it. now that G302 presentation is over, im thinking of working more so i can afford to spend alittle more. august, come quick! hope christy gives me more shifts as i've requested.

oh yeah, i went for a haircut. looks like a bird nest when it's dry. :\ lessons need a little bit of spice cos i'm dozing off soon.

shall try my luck again for donut balls. :D so excited! ive just recently got this craving for sugar donuts, esp those super fluffy core and not compact kind, plus coated with lots of sugar. yummmie! :D :D :D

ciaos!

embracingingray @ 2009-07-21T00:56:00

2009-07-20T17:50:50Z

i am still waiting for my laundry to get done. & i have to do my laundry cos i'm washing 3 sets of training gears. i have no idea why was i feeling sleepy during lessons though i slept for 8-9hrs?! that's super shiok cos it's been long since i last slept like this during school days. the month of august is gonna be full of shiokness cos holidays are going to start soon, meaning more working hours and $$$! :D

but now, i'm experiencing tail bone abrasion, muscle aches, some part of my upper neck area swollen and pain. wierd.
i'm so going for a haircut. & i'll rant and rant abt it until i get it, hopefully later on, after school.

perspective. decisions. consequences.

G301 DONE!

2009-07-18T05:59:20Z

the past 1 week has been busy with FYP- staying up late to finish up the poster esp when some bugger give low quality work. then it was sending it to our PI to vet it, then amend and vet and amend. hardcore siol. good thing that we practised presenting twice, not that the daily PBL presentation was not enough but just to make sure we know how to react to questions being posted.

today was the final showdown and seriously speaking, i was feeling excited, not fair bit of being scared at all. 6 asessors which mean may need to present a maximum of 6 times. each asessor will look at different areas. 1- coherency of the project with the aim, 2- team dynamics, 3- depth of knowledge and understanding of the project most likely methods, 4- processes and preparation, 5- not sure what cos i swear the asessor francis is damn freaking funny that jokes with us even during our presentation. well, it was like a normal conversation, discussing about sth more than a formal presentation. so my team was all in jeans. kay, the other 4 guys wore long sleeve shirt while i wore a t-shirt. it's really okayyyy but other teams all wear formal. so anyway, we decided to wear formal for our G302 presentation next semester.

all things went well, and non of us were dumb founded. maybe more is to be expected in G302 uh. so we called our P.I and bluffed him that we got screw badly by one of the asessors and were dumbfounded by the questions. but he didn't believe uh. ^^

didn't get to take a shot of us with the poster but it's alrighttt. :) we still got another chance.
G301 done means more regular sleeping hours, less stressful and lesser white hair.
my hair seems abit thick alreadyyy. hmmmm. :/ it's the monthly routine to go for some trimming again..

kkay. im out ltr on. ciaos!
:D

Ain't totally just me..

2009-07-10T13:32:01Z

i finally met up with adeline for lunch today but.. i have yet to give her a bear hug yet. :( passed her a pack of maple biscuits cos apparently, the other pack that i brought along seems to look funny. so nvm, i'll pass you the 3rd pack i have at home. :)

sin #1
today, i pleaded guilty for making my class mate who's in my same team cry.

she was not contributing since the first time i teamed up with her for proteomics. there were even lessons whereby she ended the day without making any comments. those were the days when i drafted the content page and allocated easy stuff for her to handle for the ppt. but today, i cldn't be bothered abt her anymore. proteomics today is easy- to propose experiments to detect protein-protein interactions. i prompted her a number of times, asking "so XXX, what are u going to be presenting on?". her reply was,"errhh. what to do ah?". so i decided that today shall be her doomsday if she isn't going to be contributing at all. in a team of 5, she's the only one who was still uncertain of what to present on (rmb that she didn't comment on any part of the lesson, so we can't possibly know if she understands or not.). my 2nd breakout started early, at 12. so i was doing on my slide and was long done by 1.15 whereby it's the only time frame we can go for lunch. so i came back at just before 2, to realise that she did on FRET, while i did on BRET. take a little bit of time to read up on this 2 methods and u'd realise that the principle of this 2 methods is the same, similarity- 97%. BRET is a more improved method from FRET. so, there is no way that i put her slide behind mine, cos it doesn't flow. so doesn't it seem like i'm overlapping on her work instead after she presented first? but i still included her slide in. i didn't remove it away at all. then i was ranting to weiling on msn abt it, who sits infront of me, beside XXX. perhaps i was abit harsh in saying that "next time just anyhow give her anything to do. don't give her work also can. who asks her not to contribute.". it was a moment of fit. and it wasn't mean to target her directly. but god knows the bloody hell that weiling's msn fonts is approx size 16. try that on ur msn and tell me which idiot cldn't see the content when XXX is just sitting less than a metre away from weiling.

so XXX started crying. that totally suprised me out. it's the first time in my 2 yrs plus in RP that i actually made someone cry. then she left the class for a while. i asked weiling to go find her and mean while, i apologised to her multiple times. XXX told me to remove her slide but i assured her that it's alright and that i didn't mean to sound so harsh but hope that she'll contribute more. kkays. it goes on luh huh. & i got to know from her good friend who was in the same class that XXX hasn't been very confident abt proteomics and is a quiet person though she has gotten better since year 1. but, i can't really relate the reason for her to keep mum to herself and not contribute a single ti-ny-wee-ny bit, other than to wait for stuff to "fall from the sky".

yes, i do feel guilty and bad and i know i was mean. but i don't think i deserve the full responsibility. a year 3 student, should at least show that he/ she is contributing considerably well to the production of a ppt by the 3rd meeting for every presentation, instead of staying on fb all the time. anw, what's done can't be undone. though i've apologised many times, i can't take back what i've said.

actually, i have been teasing my fyp team mate too. similar case as well. but since i'm the only female in the team, no crying incidents. i do try to be nice to him too. unless he gets irritating by waiting for things to be done instead of being initiative and contributive. but at least he does give comments, but rarely those kind. -.-" maybe it'll help alot to be able to read his mind and know what he's thinking when we're cracking our heads.

like what guru says, i do wonder what's wrong with this year's fyp teams. seems to have problems every where. there are one-man-show teams out there actually. like jialat sia.

all i can say is that i'll learn from the past and avoid it in future.

embracingingray @ 2009-07-09T00:41:00

2009-07-08T16:43:02Z

YEAHH! ADELINE CONFESSED AGAIN!

p.s. i miss everyone in the team, even if u've been irritating. :)

embracingingray @ 2009-07-07T00:19:00

2009-07-06T16:25:57Z

i knew i got to share this with you when i first set my eyes on it. check this out! the blonde is a one-of-a-kind siol!
-RAISING EYEBROWS-

:D :D :D

now we need to flash our thermometer to enter into the school for lessons. are they "cute" or what?!
went to the doc for my cough and a 5-day course of antibiotics plus some wu-ah-bo-eh actually cost mummy 45$. kena kanned by my mum also. :(

good nights! :)

embracingingray @ 2009-07-05T10:30:00

2009-07-05T02:42:42Z

yes yes yes! report is finally done. now left with poster, some logbook updates and the online porter then there's nth much being left. but the main thing is still the report.
closure of sports facilities is being extended for another week, and as predicted, cases of the influenza will rise to 100. congratulations. soon it will just be getting common cold.
shall be going to the doc soon for some anti-biotics. it made me cough badly yesterdayy. :( meanwhile, i'll catch a short wink first. :D

anw, jolene koh! really apologetic over yesterday. meet up soon kay. :D/ <3!

ciaos!

embracingingray @ 2009-07-01T22:16:00

2009-07-01T15:22:30Z

can i purchase antibiotics at pharmacies without doctor's prescription? :D diphenhydramine may reduces mucous production and ease my phlegm but i think antibiotics are still better, considering that diphenhydramine causes drowsiness and only reduces symptoms by 40-60%. aye. i didn't know it can prevent motion sickness and can be prescribed to insomnia patients.

kkay. today was fun after the farm. gabriel drove us to NTU campus for lunch, went to Hay dairies goat's farm at kranji, organic farm and tried some organic root beer without colouring and jalan bahtera campsite plus some ulu ulu area. i didn't know kids who gre up feeding on cow's milk actually increases phlegm formation. goat's milk is a better alternative as compared to cow's milk- good for lactose intolerant ppl and can be digested faster.

G301 project presentation is on 18 July, at classroom W25k. kindly burn all your notes and reports, mix it well with water and drink it to avoid being stunned and shot badly by the assessors. :/
i can't seem to send the 14mb draft report to gabriel. winzip doesn't seem to help ayeee.

mean while, check out the measure that RP has suggest in an attempt with regards to H1N1. -->

Group A Modules:

Timeout Window 1: 9.45 am to 10:05 am

Timeout Window 2: 11.15 am to 12.00 pm [Lunch]

Students shall leave the RP campus at 3.30 p.m.

Group B Modules:

Timeout Window 1: 10.15 am to 10.35 am

Timeout Window 2: 12.15 pm to 1.00 pm [Lunch]

Students shall leave the RP campus at 4.00 p.m.

Group C Modules:

Timeout Window 1: 10.45 am to 11.05 am

Timeout Window 2: 1.15 pm to 2.00 pm [Lunch]

Students shall leave the RP campus at 4.30 p.m.

so apparently, we're suppose to leave class only during this shorter time frame though our breaks are much longer. my modules are all grp C and break starts from 1030 to 1115 & 1215 to 1415. and we're always released earlier. shall see what's in for fun tml uhh. -raising eyebrows-

imagine wearing a face mask to paddle.

hahaha! looks like rightt? :D

k. good nights!